Letz B friendz!

Ok, so last night I get an invite to Michhottie’s fundraising event through Facebook. Hmm do you think he was inviting a bunch of friends or noticed I wasn’t already on the list of 2,000 people already?! haha. I’d like to give myself credit and think he thought of me and added me, whether it be because he wanted to make sure “his people” were on the list or, specifically I was involved.

Anywho, ironic as he had asked back in the day to host this “event” for this charity he is a part of at a bar I host a lot of events at for this Organization I’m a part of. Anyway, it’s not at this bar/venue and it’s not til May, but I guess they want people signing up now. HEY! At least I know if I go, I can have a drink with him in May!!! WAHOOO!

Michhottie must just be terribly confused and at the age of 30+ he obviously knows I’m “That girl you get serious with” which is why he is obviously hesitant/distracted no?!?!  Note to self: MichhottieII has never tried to set a date since..ha!

Nice that Michhottie thinks of me and wants me to be a part of his life, just sucks I have a crush on him and he cannot make a move. He has to know I have something on him…and I can’t help but think he has something on me…somewhere? WHO knows…for now…let’s just be friends….sigh.

I love you, goodbye…

Just have an obsession with this Celine Dion song at the moment, hence today’s title…I like to torment myself with sad music. I guess it describes how I feel at the moment…it’s more or less how I’ve released myself from ‘dating situations’ as of date. I’m gonna stop being nice, stop being ME, and let you go…because you didn’t want ME.

So, the ‘date’ last night with MichiganhottieII didn’t happen. I think I need to abort the two cars and hop on the next train—so to speak! I just don’t want to be played, I’d rather have a good rep than that of a ghasp! ‘slut.’ Guys make a joke of a girl who hops around their crew…this much I know. I’m def not looking to do that! That said, I ended up also txting back Michiganhottie “That’s so un “Michiganhottie” like! I’ve been busy. Hoping for a snowstorm so I can ”work from home” tomorrow:) Keep me posted on drinks-din!”

Michhottie never wrote back…

Really, it’s fair game, I’ve had discussions with both for drinks at this point. They can both not act, one can act first or I can just forget it happened and blow either/or off. Let’s be honest, they are being d-bags. Really!? REMEMBER THIS SOD-Damnit! Regardless, I’m just not one to walk away as the “bad person.” Though maybe I should?!

Yet again today, someone told me “You are too nice!”  Another person said “You crack me up!” I used to think these were ok traits, I’m just not sure, because I think they are abused traits.

Personally, why do I have to be the one to love you…goodbye.

these guys are all douches

Like to give a shout out to my brother for this subject.

I’ve disappeared…kinda a problem…hmm this sounds familiar to the men SOD takes an interest in. Guess I shouldn’t criticize eh?

So here’s the latest…been over a month since I officially purged that douche of a douche BlueEyes he can take his Bronco’s Calendar and jerk it.  Anyway, I’m pretty proud of myself and am so fortunate to have some awesome girlfriends help me pass time:)

In the interim, I feel I’ve become entangled in a love triangle cluster fuck. Met this sweetheart of a guy or so I’d like to think, Michhottie on Fire Island. Saw him on the beach and at the bar approached him and he knew me as THE SOD aka (my real name). He was just incredibly amazing, like male version of me. ha!  Woah, tootin my own horn. We watched some football games when one day Michhottie’s frat bro shows up and takes my number we will call him MichhottieII. Since they are friends with similar motives I am discovering, these names make sense.

Anyway, MichhottieII pursued me to no avail. But I should preface his first pursuit was “come straddle me” in the form of a text…such a turn off buddy. In this lovely cluster F of  my liking Michhottie, his buddy II has since pursued. So I decided I needed to get it outta my system and ask Michhottie for drinks…he never responds…of course until I pursue II for drinks he’s been offering…

Go FIGURE…I send II a text this morning ”When are we getting drinks you proposed?” NO SOONER do I send then I notice a text from Michhottie:

“apologies for my lack of response and being mia. dinner or drinks would be great…unfort i continue to get crushed by work as of late…how are things on your end…”

 

II hasn’t said anything since…I’m waiting for him to respond first. I think the joke is on me and dinner? Michhottie? I just said drinks Michhottie…what say you?!

xo,

Confused SOD