Back in the day, I started this new job…Spring ’06. At the time I was still having direct contact issues let’s call it that with NarcissistX when I began at this job. Three guys in the office were chasing me…it was fun, but also a bit…ANNOYING! I don’t mix office with pleasure, never have and never intend to. I have confirmation they were ALL after me, which feels good from a confidence perspective, but ehhhhhhhhhhhhh. Anyway, this was when one of the three boys, named Babyboy made his way out of the “rule” and entered my life.
Babyboy was always intending to quit from the company, to go into family business so that was his excuse for continuing after me. I felt bad, because I did have an attraction to him, but with NarcissistX still lingering, I just could NOT commit to Babyboy. He was younger than me (2 years out of college and totally the girl in the relationship, which I’ve never had to deal with, among many things). I tried to be very upfront about not committing, not NarcX, but no one needed to know about him anyway! Well, Babyboy tried so hard, he even sent me 2 dozen GORGEOUS roses (I love roses) to my office the day he was done working there. But even his vow to me to never admit to anyone (he was friends with a few of the guys) that anything was happening between us in the office, wasn’t appealing because the TIME was just not right for ME. Let’s just say the first night we had a sleep over, didn’t even SLEEP together, he asked where to put his contact lenses solution and extra boxers when he left the next day…woaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
So, fast forward today, I went running and for the second time in a month, when I haven’t seen him in 2 years…I run into him!!! With…his fiance. Man, did he want to be married or what?! I’m happy for him, he seems really awkward when I see him and I’m just like “hey Babyboy!!!” I wonder if he ever told his fiance, Redheadedmama about our past? I wonder if, as a woman, we are usually like this around a guy that broke our heart? I def hurt him and I feel so so bad because I think he’s a cool guy, really! I just wasn’t there…and apparently he’s in some type of rush or so it appears? I’m glad Babyboy found an older redheadedmama to care for him:) (ALL SINCERITY!)
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